Friday, October 31, 2003
Fickle...*Reads thru tags on the tagboard*
Hmmm..
..perhaps not.. :p ... Should I??? Should I not? .... hmmm....
Posted by AdrenaLynn at 10:06 PM
Thursday, October 30, 2003
Been so tired the last few days!! After buka, take my med & the next thing I'll be really stoned!! Juz Give me 5 minutes & I'll be a goner... ZZzzzzzzz !!Anyways, I'm still having a bad sore throat! I still sound a little hoarse but at least I can talk without hurting my throat now!! The coughs aren't so bad. It's just when my throat gets really dry, It'll start to itch of sorts. When that happens, I be like coughing non-stop for like 5 minutes or so!! It usually happens in the mornings & I really hate it cos I'll be on the train to work in the morning..from this week lah!!
Apparently, my coughing fits led me to this 2 contrasting Singaporeans I encountered on the train....
Passenger 1: On my way back from work, in the train heading to City hall!! Train ...reached Newton Station & this lady hurriedly rushed to the empty seat beside me (I was in the corner, the 2 seater)! All was ok till the tarin reached Somerset & my throat started to itch..leading to me coughing incessantly! I couldn't stop myself from coughing my lung out so I turned away from the lady & covered my mouth to cough..It was only right to do that anyways.. its a basic!! She started looking at me.. then staring.. in disgust as if i have SARS or something!! By the time the train left Orchard, I've already stopped coughing but she still stared at me!! I chose to ignore the wench & then she proceeded to take out her sweater & covered her face..from the nose down with it..right in front of me!!!
I turened to look at her.. & she avoided eye contact!! Geez.. I dunno why but that really pissed me off..!! Seconds before the train finally reached City Hall.. I turned to cough towards her..hehe!! God knows why It pissed me off...It's probably the whole SARS incident scared the shit out of her..but I found her just plain fucking rude..
Passenger 2: Heading to work.. This morning.. still a long way to go till City hall but as usual in the morning.. throat dry & I start to cough!! As usual, i'll cover my mouth & all that.. but it was pretty bad lah..was hacking so hard my eyes teared. Lady who sat beside me, turned to look at me..then looked inside her bag!! I initially thought she was gonna react like Passenger 1 but to my suprise..she tapped me on my elbow & offered me some lozenges. As I was fasting, I turned her down but smiled & said Thanks!
Now passenger 1 made me think that the Whole SARS things made some Singaporeans even more uglier than we already are!! I wonder how she'd react if someone with Aids sat beside her... & told her!! She'll probably got off on the next stop!!
Passenger 2...Made a really small gesture but what she did really made my day! It was really nice & thoughtful of her!!
It made me think...Now how many strangers on the streets will do that?? How many of us will ever do that??
Will I do that?? Well, now..if i do have some in my bag..I most definitely will cos It'll definitely make another person's day :)
Have a good night people..I'm gonna get high!!
Posted by AdrenaLynn at 8:08 PM
Tuesday, October 28, 2003
Saint ShitHeadI don't have to like the decision dear but I won't stop you or challenge that decision of yours. I have a valid reason if I want to stop you, we had a deal remember... & that deal was in my favour!! You don't have to know this but I understand that it's something that'll make you happy..I know!! So go ahead, I'll always be right here supporting you & always worrying about you!!
Oh.. by the way.. If you're to injure or even aggravate that already broken but healing really slowly leg of yours.. I'll be right here to say "I Freaking Told You So"!! hehe..I'll be waiting to do that...hehe..you stubborn shithead!!
Love ya :)
Posted by AdrenaLynn at 11:54 PM
Monday, October 27, 2003
Heya!!!!First day of puasa..First day of Work!! The day went ok.. work was ok!! Its an easy job but it rather mundane!! I can't complain really..at least i'm getting paid right!! As for fasting, It went extremely well actually..usually the first days are the toughest for me..hehe....but I barely felt it!! :)
Just realised..like Herda..I won't be able to do a lot of tagging since I've started work!! The fact that I don't have a PC at work is also the reason why..!! Well, there is a PC but the work I do doesn't need me to use the PC..so It stays off!! I'll try to get on in the evenings though..that is..if the 2 royal pain in the asses(my brothers..heh) aren't hogging the freakin PC!!
Well, I dun really have much to say.. I'm gonna go munch on a few slices of Butter Cake courtesy of Sara Lee!! I really shouldn't though..with my bad throat & all..hehe..!!
Posted by AdrenaLynn at 8:00 PM
Sunday, October 26, 2003
She's so High....High above Me..*Time Check - 12.24am*
After the layout change yesterday.. Stuffed myself with food & later took my medication!! Damn, the doc gave me some real good shit..I got real stoned in no time! I was asleep for 6 hours after that from 6pm saturday evening to 12am Sunday!! I got up & was like.. "Huh?? It's sunday aready?"!!
My Baby, Ruben called me when he got home after work about 6.45pm! I was already asleep, so I said I'll call back! I actually was awaken for about 5 minutes around 9pm...& called him back like i said I would..hehe!! Well, he was also asleep..hehe..poor fella..so we both hung up & continued sleeping (that didn't take very long.. I was asleep again in less than a minute!!))!!!
Oh well, Gonna grab some food again & get high on my medication again... after I catch Who's Line is it Anyway on TV!!
Laters
Posted by AdrenaLynn at 12:32 AM
Saturday, October 25, 2003
Somebody Shoot Me..My throat is killing me!! My sore throat has evolved!! I now got Laryngitis which really sucks big time cos..I CAN'T BARELY SPEAK!!! I sound all hoarse & when I try to talk(which hurts by the way), you'll get this low rumble coming from me which make it hard for people to listen to me ..let alone comprehend! What's worse is when I hafta repeat myself ..a couple of times I might add!! Damn!!
Doc says I shouldn't try not to talk too much or strain my voicebox for at least 3 days!! Damn!! Now that really sucks!! I can never shut up!! Can't be bitching over the phone either!! Sheesh!!!
Anyways, If you haven't noticed yet..the layout has changed! Saturday got boring so I finally decided to change it..about time too!! With the fasting month in less than 2 days..the picture of them girls kissing..hehe..won't be helpful..hehe!!
Spent the Deepavali holiday yesterday watchin TV! Went out with my Ruben for a while in the afternoon! Since he'll be working on both weekends..we went out yesterday instead! Was supposed to got watch Kill Bill but i woke up in the mornin with a fever so I really didn't feel up for it..sitting in the cold cinema for 2 hours!! It'll probably make me feel worse. So I cancelled the movie date & we headed to Tampines mall instead. We had lunch, checked out some furniture at Courts..juz walked around! I bought myself a bag ... well technically he got it for me lah! (thank You sugars)
After all that we headed home to my place ..just in time to watch LagaaN on channel i! Ruben for left halfway thru the show! The poor fella was so tired from walking around with his crutch...no thanks to me!! Love You dear!
Rest of the night was spend watching TV...& yeah..it was Survivor night anyways :)
I'll most likely be just bumming around tomorrow too..couch potato..hehe!! Work starts on Monday anyways.. I'm excited but...the idea of having to wake up so early & taking the MRT with the early morning human traffic...is really making me feel so SIAN!!
I'm hungry..but before I go indulge..
That's Lil Ginger! Finally uploaded the lil' bugger's pic..hehe!! Dun be fooled by his size though..This Lil' cute furry thingy is a Big Bully..well he bully the bigger boys..but he's afraid of Putih though!! She's like the Tajieta .. no one messes with her!!
Posted by AdrenaLynn at 4:50 PM
Thursday, October 23, 2003
Nose decides to play catch todays!! Crap! It's been drippin & I've been sneezing!! Ughhhh!!!!Ruben has been back since Tuesday evening & he's back at work after 3 months of MC! Hope everything is ok wit him!!
Suppose he'll be stuck here in Sg for 2 months at least. won't be headin back to JB If he doesn't get a ride or something!
I guess I should be happy he's back & here to stay .. aren't I? I really do not know what the hell I'm feeling now!! The last few days has been an emotional rollercoaster!! It's like Sunday I felt so fuckin lost & alone..crying my eyes out! Monday I was hopeful! Tuesday..I was happy wit the job thingy in the day but shit happened at night wit Ruben ..so I cried my eyes out then. Yesterday was happy happy horseshit .. spending the day with him...but last night depression sets in!! Still feelin a tad depressed now actually!! PMS???
...I think too much..way to much for my own good!!! I feel like going bungee..minus the rope!!!
Fuck lah... WHY DO I STILL FEEL SO INCOMPLETE??!!!!!
I'm so emotionally unstable!! Mental... Head case!!!
Need my Swiss army knife...!!!
MatchBox Twenty - If You're Gone
I think I've already lost you
I think you're already gone
I think I'm finally scared now
You think i'm weak, I think you're wrong
I think you're already leaving
Feels like your hand is on the door
I thought this place was an empire
Now I'm relaxed, I can't be sure
I think you're so mean
I think we should try
I think I could need this in my life
I think I'm scared
I think too much
I know it's wrong, it's a problem I'm dealing
(Chorus)
If you're gone, maybe it's time to come home
There's an awful lot of breathing room
but I can hardly move
If you're gone, baby you need to come home, oh come home
There's a little bit of something me
in everything in you
I bet you're hard to get over
I bet the moon just won't shine
I bet my hands I can stay here
I bet you're me more than you're mine
I think you're so mean
I think we should try
I think I could need this in my life
I think I'm just scared that I know too much
I can't relate and that's a problem I'm feeling
(Chorus)
I think you're so mean
I think we should try
I think I could need this in my life and
I think I'm scared
Do I talk too much
I know it's wrong, it's a problem I'm dealing
(Chorus)
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Quizzes from Ryx
You are Form 3, Unicorn: The Innocent.
"And The Unicorn knew she wasn't meant to
go into the Dark Wood. Disregarding the advice
given to her by the spirits, Unicorn went
inside and bled silver blood.. For her
misdeed, the world knew evil."
Some examples of the Unicorn Form are Eve
(Christian) and Pandora (Greek).
The Unicorn is associated with the concept of
innocence, the number 3, and the element of
water.
Her sign is the twilight sun.
As a member of Form 3, you are a curious
individual. You are drawn to new things and
become fascinated with ideas you've never come
in contact with before. Some people may say
you are too nosey, but it's only because you
like getting to the bottom of things and
solving them. Unicorns are the best friends to
have because they are inquisitive.
Which Mythological Form Are You?
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You're living the movie Scream!
?? Which Horror Movie Are You Living ??
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Already dating a Psycho..so no biggie!! I think I'm the bigger Psycho though!!!
Posted by AdrenaLynn at 11:39 AM
Tuesday, October 21, 2003
I wanna Be a SupermodeL!!The fever has disappeared & so has my sandpaper throat!!! Its amazing...!!! Loading up on the cough syrup thingy last night worked i guess..hehe!! NO, I didn't drink the whole bottle! Ain't crazy enuff to do that. There was i time when I would have..hehe.. but doing that once was enuff..dun wanna go there no more!! Slept like a log thanks to that!!
My wake up call this morning came in a form of a phonecall. On the other line was a lady who asked if I was still interested in the part-time stint I applied for with their organisation! Wide awake now..I definitely said yes & I was asked to start Monday!! So I hafta head down there later after 2pm to hand some documents over & such!! I feel like hugging someone..anyone..hehe... at least I won't be broke come Hari Raya..hehe!!!
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Atomic Kitten - If You Come to Me
So long ago
I didn't have a care about me
I didn't know my right from wrong
But now I know
That you got your love around me
And you know it makes me feel so strong
Baby if you turn around
And prove to me its real
Maybe we can work it out
Cos this is how I feel
Do you know where you go when you give it all away
I'll be there for you, care for you
Love you everyday oh baby
And do you feel the same for me?
Everyday all the way
When I feel a little low
I would cry for you, die for you
Just to let you know oh baby
And if you come to me you know I'll make it right
Through all my life
I never thought I'd have somebody
Someone to call my own
And now I've found
A little bit of heaven baby
A place to call my own
Baby if you turn around
And prove to me its real
Maybe we can work it out
Cos this is how I feel
Do you know where you go when you give it all away
I'll be there for you, care for you
Love you everyday oh baby
And do you feel the same for me?
Everyday all the way
When I feel a little low
I would cry for you, die for you
Just to let you know oh baby
And if you come to me you know I'll make it right
Baby don't u know u gotta slow down
Before u know u gotta break down
And turn around before you know
You go and break my heart
When will you learn to be a little helpful
And you think off me a little careful
When you're close to me
Because baby I loved you from the start
Baby if you turn around
And prove to me its real
Maybe we can work it out
Cos this is how I feel
(i love you baby)
Do you know where you go when you give it all away
(where you go)
I'll be there for you, care for you
Love you everyday oh baby (i would cry)
(i would die)And do you feel the same for me?
(i love you baby)
Everyday all the way (where you go)
When I feel a little low
I would cry for you, die for you
Just to let you know oh baby (i would cry)
(i would die) And if you come to me you know I'll make it right
(i love you baby)
Do you know where you go when you give it all away (where you go)
I'll be there for you, care for you
Love you everyday oh baby (i would cry)
And do you feel the same for me?
(i love you baby)
Everyday all the way (where you go)
When I feel a little low
I would cry for you, die for you
Just to let you know oh baby (i would cry)
(i would die) And if you come to me you know I'll make it right
Ain't a fan of the pussies..ermm..kittens.. but I like this song!
This is for you...
Posted by AdrenaLynn at 10:28 AM
Monday, October 20, 2003
I wanna play with your Cue!!!!Slept at 3 last night. Head was killing me! Felt like it was gonna explode or something. Puked my dinner out too! Bame it on my irregular eating habits! Haven't been eating much lately.. I'll only have my first meal of the day..between 4 to 6pm!! Ruben is gonna kill me if he reads this!! With my gastritis & all..hehe..I shouldn't be skipping my meals! I really can't help it much..How to eat if I don't feel hungry!!
Woke up this mornin & my throat felt like freaking sandpaper!!! It fucking hurts when I swallow (hmmm..that sounds lewd..hehe!!)..!! Feelin so fucking lethargic too!! Not sure if I'm gonna head to rugby todays though!! Can't push myself too much if I ain't up to it!!
Talked to the Ex on Saturday night! I shall not comment too much on that..hehe..he might be reading this..!! No..lah..nothing much to comment anyways..Juz that It was nice to talk to him again!
I'm grateful Ruben doesn't have a problem with it. He's wonderful..when he's not being an ass lah..hehe!
My heart belong to you baby... no one else but you!!
Ok enough Mushiness!! That meeting with Herda on Saturday was fun!! hehe... I felt like a tourist in my own country..hehe!! Yeah I'm that deprived..hehe..only she knows how deprived I am..hehe!! Then there's the toilet..hehe *winks at Herda* but that's another story you just have to ask her..hehe!!!
Gonna get something to eat already ah!! Hungry now!!
Posted by AdrenaLynn at 1:54 PM
Saturday, October 18, 2003
I'm sorry I can't be perfect!Please don’t turn your back
I can’t believe it’s hard just to talk to you
But you don’t understand
I understand what you want for me & why! If I were to tell you my plans, would you understand?
I dunno how to let you know..I dunno how to talk to you without us having to fight over it..everytime!
I'm listening to you..but are you listening to me ..Daddy....??
I feel pressured..we both do!! I wanna let you know but We all know how that'll make you feel & how you'll react to that!!
I dun wanna hurt you nor disappoint you..... but I wanna do things only when I'm ready to.....
Met herda earlier but I'm not in the mood to update though!! sorry!!
Posted by AdrenaLynn at 11:11 PM
Nice Blog-- Clicked on the url after seeing 'your blog' highlighted on the Blogger homepage.
...
It's one of my favorities.
Provocative & Interesting.
" in other words, Anything, but Ordinaory!
...
Keep on Bloggin'.
p.s.
Love reading of your insight into astorlogy!.
Blogless In Memphis | Email | 10.17.03 - 8:02 pm | #
Got the above comment from my last post! If you're readin this, Thanks! I think you're really generous with the compliments..hehe..!! Never thot what I write here is even interesting!! You sign off as blogless in memphis.. hmm.. a case of a blogless blog reader? *winks at Herda* Whatever it is, come in again sometime!!
Inability to sleep struck me again last night! Was tired but couldn't get to sleep when i really needed too..since I got track laters at 2! Fell asleep somehow..after a long while..!! Woke up to the incessant sounds of my mobile beeping. Text messages... one after another!!
My Ex text'd me last nite. It was a pleasant suprise that he did! I'm flattered to know that he misses me :) Awwww!! However, how do u tell someone that the feeling ain't mutual. It's like you do think abt em but you don't really miss him!Found out from him that his sister, Kak Ina visits my blog..hehe.. he does too once in a while..!! The shocker however is when he mentioned that Kak Ina actually found out about my blog thru...*drumroll* Herda's!! Almost fell outta my seat upon hearing that!
Herda dear, i guess the whole of Singapore knows you by now!! We can start a 'Six Degrees to Herda' game!!! hehe!!
Ruben didn't call last nite!! He said he'll be out wit the slut, Steve..hehe!! Hope he's alright..!!
Alrighty, Gonna go hit the shower. Gotta head to the mall & get my spike afterwhich Will be headin to Bishan Stadium for track! Notebook will be tagging along so will be meeting her at the train station laters!!
Have a good weekend ya'all!!
Posted by AdrenaLynn at 10:50 AM
Friday, October 17, 2003
It's Survivor Night!Got this Thru Mutiara! Thank you girl!
Whatever that are in Italics are either very true or close enuff ..hehe!!
Does your name begin with: I (myself)
You have a great need to be loved, appreciated... even worshiped. You enjoy
luxury, sensuality, and pleasures of the flesh. You like necking spend hours
just touching feeling & exploring. You look for lovers who know what they are
doing. You are not interested in an amateur, unless that amateur wants a
tutor. You are fussy and exacting about having your desires satisfied. You
are willing to experiment and try new modes of expression. You bore
easily and thus require adventure and change. Your commitments don't last
very long & you often tend to stray. Loyalty is not one of your strong
points. You are more sensual than sexual, but you are sometimes downright
lustful.
Does your name begin with: R (Him)
You are a no-nonsense, action-oriented individual. You need someone who can
keep pace with you and who is your intellectual equal-the smarter the better.
You are turned on more quickly by a great mind than by a great body. However,
physical attractiveness is not very important to you. You have to be proved
to be worthy for a partner. You have a need to prove yourself the best. You
want feedback on your performance. You are open, stimulating & romantic.
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DECEMBER (Me)
Loyal and generous
Patriotic
Active in games and interactions
Impatient and hasty
Ambitious
Influential in organizations
Loves to socialize
Loves praises
Loves attention
Loves to be loved
Honest and trustworthy
Not pretending
Short tempered and egoistic
Takes high pride in oneself
Hates restrictions
Loves to joke
Good sense of humor
Logical
AUGUST (Him)
Loves to joke
Attractive
Suave and caring
Brave and fearless
Firm and has leadership qualities
Knows how to console others
Too generous and egoistic
Takes high pride of oneself
Thirsty for praises
Extraordinary spirit
Easily angered
Angry when provoked
Easily jealous
Observant
Careful and cautious
Thinks quickly
Independent thoughts
Loves to lead and to be led
Loves to dream
Talented in the arts, music and defence
Sensitive but not petty
Poor resistance against illnesses
Learns to relax
Hasty and rushy
Romantic
Loving and caring
Loves to make friends
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Sagittarius (Me)
Turn ons
Sagittarius is basically a happy go lucky kind. You can enjoy with their zest
and enthusiasm in life. They can bubble with excitement that can be tangible
at times. And if you share same interests and hobbies then life can be great
fun together. They are frank and straightforward so if you want some truthful
opinion about anything or anyone goes to them.Be optimistic as they are and
view life as glass half full.
Turn offs
Sagittarius is fiercely independent and cannot tolerate restriction hence do
not try to hold them back in life. Let them enjoy their freedom because if
you hold any special place in their heart they will always come back for you.
Do not feel irritated by the exaggeration in their speech. They may go on and
on talking about certain things that may not even interest you but it is
their way of trying to communicate with you.They are basically frank and
outspoken (to the point of being rude)so do not feel offended by their
talks.
Leo (Him)
Turn ons
If you have Leo partner respect him and his majestic manners. Accept the
advice of Leo, the lion, as he is the king of the jungle. It is the sign of a
showman so if your partner does everything in grand style enjoy it. Do lavish
Leo`s frequently with compliments and see them purr like a cat. They fall
easily for flattery and want to be center of attraction of all eyes
(sometimes they can be quiet theatrical too).
Turn offs
Never ever hurt the ego of a Leo. Pride, ego and vanity are some of the bags
all Leo`s always carry with them. Do not touch these bags. An authoritative
Leo is even more difficult to handle in such circumstances. Leo is a sunny
sign so they do not like people who are gloomy or depressed. Even if you are
crying at heart keep a sunny smile on your lips and then let lion take the
charge and remove all worries from your life.
Posted by AdrenaLynn at 6:01 PM
I want It hard! So, Fuck me baby..Fuck me Good!!
Ignore the title..juz felt like putting that up there..hehe!! So if you're hoping the contents of today's post has anything to do with the title... I am sorry to disappoint you!!
Had trouble sleeping last night...trouble being the inability to fall asleep!! Hit the sack at 4am but spent an hour or more tossing & turning!! Woke up this morning to roaring thunder & lightning flashes tearing up the sky. Apparently the sweet taste of Diet Coke from last night still lingered on my lips! Licking my lips, I wondered if corn syrup tasted like Corn! Laid in bed counting the number of lightning flashes till the sky decided to rip apart & cry. Don't ask me how many I counted. Lost count halfway when I was searching for my mobile. Found it hiding between The Walrus & Stitch! The walrus guards my mobile when I'm asleep at night. I wonder, maybe Genetic Experiment 626 was trying to call home!!
Something i have to do today. Can't recall what..!! *bangs head against wall* Oh alright yeah. I need to get new 'studs/cleats/spikes' or whatever they call it for my spike shoes!! Need it tomorrow for track!
*looks out the window* Rain's still pretty heavy! Not sure if I wanna make my way to the mall! Love the rain but juz too lazy to go out!
3 job applications going out in the mail today! Not really hoping for anything anymore. I'm juz thankful if I get anything at all! This job hunting thingy is getting annoying! I found out on Wednesday that 3 of my former schoolmates. Sham, Rain & Ishak were also jobless. All of em from the same batch as I was!! It was funny when Sham,Rain & myself found out that we all applied for the same job at ICA. Talk about coincidence! What was even more hilarious is that all 3 of us didn't get the freaking job!
Irony?.. The 3 of us started working together after graduation 3 years ago. Each one of us left at different times eventually. 3 years on, the same 3 are without jobs. The same 3 looking for jobs..together!! Geez! I don't know whether to laugh or cry at our crappy luck..!!
Did you hear that? That's my stomach growling! I'm gonna go have my lunch!
Posted by AdrenaLynn at 2:26 PM
Thursday, October 16, 2003
*yawnn* It's already a quarter past 2 & I'm still sleepy seyy!!!Anyways... Went to the hospital with Ruben yesterday for his doctor's appointment!! The doc decided he doesn't need the Op... which is a good thing! He'll be back at work on the 23rd of the month..light duties only though!
Ruben said to me " Well you should be happy aren't you, Since I'll be coming back for good real soon.." .. I could only managed a smile.. but i really didn't know how to reply to that! I really don't know, I'm glad he's fine... I'm glad he can finally get back to work... I'm glad that he'll be in Sg more often..which means I may get to see him more than i did in the last 3 months. Plus the fact that he's less of an arse when he's here ..is a bonus!
But somehow in some way..I kinda got used to not having him around. Sure i'll still miss him after a while but..it really doesn't matter much anymore. Since the last 'obligation' incident, i don't wait for his calls anymore....In fact..It really don't care much if doesn't come...but he still calls everyday. Hopefully, it's not due to obligation though :)
I guess I've finally learnt that sometimes..you just hafta not Give a Fuck....hehe!! Seriously.. I think I've finally got a grip on it..!!
So am I happy that he'll be back....
Wel..YESl I'm happy.. not to the extent of extreme elation or jubilance though. I'm glad that I'll get to be with him more often then ..I'm glad that he'll be right here for me to care for..!! However..sometimes shit happnes....& if we're ever separated by circumstance ....at least I know that now..I am able to handle it!!
The last 3 months hasn't been easy for the both of us but personally, It has made me stronger. Of course I've got loads of help especially from my Emo Bitchin Partner !!
The road hasn't been easy for Ruben & me..since day1..mainly due to our differences.. & my father.. but we got thru the earlier hurdles..& I guess the accident was another test for us!! Now that we've come out of that unscathed....I feel like I can take on anything..hehe..!! Alrighty.. Bring it on!!
The only thing I need now..is a job..hehe!!!
Posted by AdrenaLynn at 2:58 PM
Tuesday, October 14, 2003
Simple Plan - PerfectHey, Dad, look at me
Think back, and talk to me
Did I grow up according to plan?
And do you think I’m wasting my time
Doing things I wanna do?
But it hurts when you disapproved all along
And now I try hard to make it
I just wanna make you proud
I’m never gonna be good enough for
You can’t pretend that I’m alright
And you can’t change me
[Chorus]
‘Cause we lost it all
Nothin’ lasts forever
I’m sorry I can’t be perfect
Now it’s just too late
And we can’t go back
I’m sorry I can’t be perfect
[Verse 2]
I try not to think
About the pain I feel inside
Did you know you used to be my hero?
All the days you spent with me
Now seem so far away
And it feels like you don’t care any more
And now I try hard to make it
I just wanna make you proud
I’m never gonna be good enough for you
I can’t stand another fight
And nothing’s all right
[Chorus]
[Bridge]
Nothing’s gonna change the things that you said
And nothing’s gonna make this right again
Please don’t turn your back
I can’t believe it’s hard just to talk to you
But you don’t understand
I can honestly relate to this song...
Posted by AdrenaLynn at 4:39 PM
Monday, October 13, 2003
From Mutiara
! You are Most Like A Ruby !
Passionate, in control - and very sexy. You tend to
be more dominant, and people long to possess your
wild nature. People find you fun, and a real live
wire.
You're most like a Ruby because people simply can't
take their eyes away from you - your bright
captivating
nature draws people to you.
Congratulations ... You're the sparkly fun gem
everybody craves.
?? Which Precious Gem Are You ??
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Posted by AdrenaLynn at 10:19 PM
Has anyone ever like had a dream where you get hurt physically & waking up later kinda feeling the pain of sorts?
Well..I had this dream last night..where i fell & apparent a car ran over both my arms. I woke up this morning & both my arms were feeling extremely sore..of sorts! In fact I'm still feeling it now...something in between pain & the soreness!! Its freaky!!
Anyways..Sundays is no longer WitchBlade day.. Even better..It's Third watch day!! Yippee!!!
Now I wouldn't mind staying in on Sundays to catch Coby Bell & Anthony Ruivivar on TV!! Swoooooonnnn!!!
Oh..I watched Contact last night On Channel 5! It's a great movie..The kind that sets you thinking!!
I dunno what else to blog about so I'll leave you with 2 quotes from the movie which.. sorta had an impact on me..
Alien: You're an interesting species, an interesting mix. You're capable of such beautiful dreams and such horrible nightmares. You feel so lost, so cut off, so alone, only you're not. See, in all our searching, the only thing we've found that makes the emptiness bearable is each other.
Ellie Arroway: I had an experience, I can't proof and can't explain, but everything that I know as a human being, tells me that it was real. I was giving something wonderful, that changed me forever. A vision of the universe, that tells us undeniably, that we belong to something that is greater then ourselves, and that none of us are alone.
something to ponder on..& perhaps come up with our own thought about it...
Posted by AdrenaLynn at 2:37 PM
Saturday, October 11, 2003
*time check - 11.34pm*Went out today..hehe..to HDB Hub for a melalak session wit the girls. Namely..Dinie, Mimi, Ria (with her darling lil girl, Dino), Nyabi, Roxy & Teddy! Was supposed to meet up with Nyabi at 1pm @ City Hall MRT station but i was a lil late..hehe.. got there about 20 mins later..hehe!! So we headed to the Hub & got on with the session.. Ria left first about 3 odd ..then followed by Mimi.. then Roxy's Darling, Arnold..hehe joined us..Then Teddy left after that!! we all ended the session at around 5.30pm..hehe..imagine that..they started at around 1pm..all the way to 5.30pm siak!!!
We all wnet seperate ways ..while Me & nyabi headed to Banquet at Raffles Hospital to makan!! After that we went to cold storage & later to 'Gedung Kuning' or something like that at Kandahar street.. .accompanied Nyabi ther to meet her Darling.!!! We waited outside that place.. along the street.. sat kat tepi longkang.. singing & then chit chatting.. then sempat touch up make up summore..hehe..hehe..!!! .. We didn't stay long afterwards though...cos we got curfews..hehe!! We had to walk out towards the main road to get a cab..to go home.. I got a cab first.. & as soon as I got into the cab..the taxi driver started a very weird convo with me...
TD(taxi Driver): Eh..yr fren tu nak balik mana? (where is your fren heading to?)
Me: Dier nak balik Ghim Moh ah. (she's heading to Ghim Moh)
TD: Muka dier macam biasa nampak ah..hmm.. (she looks very familiar ah)
Me: err... ok..
TD:....... Korang pernah pergi Harmony tak? (...Have you gals ever been to Harmony?)
Me: huh?? harmony?? aper siak tu bender? (huh? what the hell is that?)
TD: Harmony lah.. Harmony KTV.. Lounge..
(I was shocked at his bluntness by now...)
Me: Siak ah!! aper seyy..no ah!! Tak pernah jejak tempat macam gitu ah.. (What the Hell!! No way.. we dun go to places like those)
TD: eh.. oh.. ye ke?? korang tak pernah kerja hostess ke aper kat sana? (oh..really.... U gals never worked a hostesses there or something?)
( I was thinking "What the?!!!! MotherFucker!!???? What the hell did he say??!!!! by this time)
Me: HUH?? Hostess eh.. boleh gitu!! Siak ajer bobual! Boleh sey gitu! Takder lah! Merepek ah! Huh?!! Hostess?? no way!! You talkin crap ah!!..no such thing ah)
TD: Oh ok.. sorry ah.. 'abang' (abang eh!!) tanyer jer.. !! most of my client hostess ah ..pasal abang drive malam..so i juz ask.. pasal kalau u need a taxi nak balik malam2 can just give me a call! Abang bukan pergi tempat2 cam gini.. abang cuma antar diorang jer kan.. abang pun dah kahwin..anak 3..nak buat aper pegi tempat gini! (oh sorry ah.. I was juz asking.. most of my personal clints are Hostesses..Cos I drive at nght..so i asked..if u need a cab when u go home late at night...juz give me a call!! I dun go to such places anyways..i juz send them.. besides i'm married with 3 kids.. why would i go to these places anyways)
Me: ah ah..yelah tuuuuuu (uh-huh..yeah righttttt
After that I just stopped talking.. speaking only when he spoke to me!! Damn..so awkward sey..being in the cab juz now!! I didn't even know whether to laugh or to feel insulted!! Crap ah!!
Anyways besides the creepy cab driver..today was fun! We should do it again girls.. next time..at my place ah?? Nak???
Just Got off the phone with My Dearie :)
.. He still calls em everyday..not that I'm complaining.. I just dun want him to end up telling me..that he's doing so out of obligation...again.. but our convo has been dandy since tat day though... oh well!! I'm juz thankful rite now taht thngs are ok lah!!
*Time check - 12.31am*
Sunday already.. yeah... today is Witchblade dayyyy!!!!!!
Posted by AdrenaLynn at 11:50 PM
Friday, October 10, 2003
Its 12.40am!! Friday's here!! Hmm..It always comes too soon whenever Ruben is in Singapore! Wednesday flew by so fast & before i knew It.. Thursday is over too!! Oh well.. Its not too bad since I'm gonna go hang with the girls this Saturday..& Ruben's gonna be back here again on Tuesday night!! Next week looks sweet..as long as he doesn't decide to behave like a complete asshole..I'm fine & dandy!!Herda..hehe.. I need a manual on how to be mean ah!! Is there like a book for it or anything?? SOP? How to Be a jerk for dummies maybe?
Anyways took Lil Ginger to the vet yesterday (thursday) evening.. for his vaccination! His 2 'godmothers', XiaoFen & Ivy (we all found him back where i was working at & we all fell in love with the sweet thing! He has 4 Godmothers altogether..hehe) hehe... went with me! After that we just chilled outside the clinic & chatted about stuff. Headed home with Ivy laters & got home at 9 odd..hehe!!
I took pictures of the fella the other day..& till now..have yet to upload the bloody photos..hehe!! Lazy ass!!
Been looking around at Blogskins but nothing really caught my fancy..well..one did but I'm still considering whether to use it or not!!
I'm hungry ah!! Nothin left to eat.. lauk dah abis!! Hmm..I feel like having Fried rice ah.. hehe..at this time!! hmmm.. time to raid the fridge!! In some ways..I'm glad I'm this small...I should count my lucky stars that I can eat my heart out at this time .. go straight to bed afterwards & not put on any weight...!! Screw whoever it is who said i looked anorexic.. at least i dun need to starve myself!! Waheyyyy!! Ok..gonna make nasi goreng already..breakfast..of sorts..hehe!! Lapar!! Nytes people....
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I like you the way you are
When we're driving in your car
And you're talking to me one-on-one
But you've become
Somebody else, round everyone else
You're watching your back, like you cant relax
You're trying to be cool , but you look like a fool to me
Tell me
Why'd you have to go and make things so complicated
I see the way you're
Acting like somebody else gets me frustrated
Life's like this and you,
and you fall and you crawl and you break and you take what you get
And you turn it into
Honesty and promise me
I'm never gonna find you fake it
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Handplant..BS Lipslide... 180 Madonna...Noseslide...50-50..HardFlip..
I'm hooked....
Tony Hawk Pro Skater 4 Rocks!!!! ......
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Took these at Lili's
You are a female or male that wants to be the
opposite sex. Sometimes you dress in their
clothing and dance around to Barney.Please rate
my quiz.
What's Wrong With You
brought to you by Quizilla
Oh shit...is it tha obvious??? ..This one below is so true..though...
You're Most Like The Season Autumn ...
You're warm, and the most approachable. You have
that gentle prescence about you. People can
relate to you, and find you easy company.
However it's likely you've been hurt in the
past and it has left you scarred so things can
become rather chilly with you at times. Being
the third Season in, you're mature, trustworthy
and loyal to your friends but prone to
depression and negative thinking.
Well done... You're the shy and sensitive season :)
?? Which Season Are You ??
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...especially about the depression & negative thinking part....
Posted by AdrenaLynn at 12:58 AM
Thursday, October 09, 2003
Guilty...Of Love in the First Degree!OK, I didn't update yesterday.. I would've but I wasn't home..by the time I got back I was too damn tired! I actually slept early last night @12midnight!! So where was I yesterday??
I actually spent my day with Ruben!! So much for my,"I dun wanna see him this week nor talk to him..cos he's being such a jerk" thingy!! Yeah he has been such a jerk & yeah I really meant what I said I wanted to do..Then!! When Wednesday came along..& he came back here..I just had to see him!! I haven't seen him for almost 2 weeks & now that he's here...hehe..I had to go..hehe!! I missed him so much!! As usual, when he's here physically.. he just turns into the most perfect boyfriend..Its like Dr Jekyll & Mr Hyde!! When he's away, he's the most insensitive ass I know!!
I dunno why I can never be mad at him for long!!! OK, so somebody shoot this pathetic lame ass bitch already..Dammit!!
He headed back home to JB last night itself. I went to bed without waiting for his call. He called though at 1.30am.. he fell asleep as soon as he got back. He didn't have to call me..but he did!! I wonder why?? Was it an obligation?? Or was it because he genuinely wanted to??
Which was it?
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Got these quizzes from ryx .. She got a spanking new layout!! hehe!!
You are Wrath/Anger!
Wow... who got you so mad huh ?? You have serious
anger issues!! with a rage that seems somewhat
deadly, and a temper that is easily raised, you
are by far the scariest sin. You tend to let
the little things get to you, and are stressed
fairly easily - and woe be it to any of your
enemies. On the positive side, you're
independent, powerful and a definite leader, if
you could just control your moods!
Congratulations on being the toughest!! ...and the
most independent of all the 7 deadly sins!
?? Which Of The Seven Deadly Sins Are You ??
brought to you by Quizilla
| I am the Rake A woman never quite feels desired and appreciated enough. She wants attention, but a man is too often distracted and unresponsive. The Rake is a great female fantasy-figure - when he desires a woman, brief though that moment may be, he will go to the ends of the earth for her. He may be disloyal, dishonest and amoral, but that only adds to his appeal. Stir a woman's repressed longings by adapting the Rake's mix of danger and pleasure. Symbol: Fire. The Rake burns with a desire that enflames the woman he is seducing. It is extreme, uncontrollable and dangerous. The Rake may end in hell, but the flames surrounding him often make him seem that much more desirable to women. |
What Type of Seducer are You?
created by
polite_society -------------
herda: Lynn.. &%$&&%$^&&%$@
hehe Herda!! You can say &%$&&%$^&&%$@ again! *hangs head in shame*
I'm pathetic.....
Posted by AdrenaLynn at 1:02 PM
Tuesday, October 07, 2003
Love Test Results1. The road represents your attitude towards falling in love.
You chose the short road--you fall in love quickly and easily.
2. The number of red roses represents how much you give in a
relationship, while the number of white represents what you
expect in return.
You give 85% and expect 15% in return.
3. This question represents your attitude towards handling
relationship problems.
You like to get the person yourself--you are a more direct
person and like to work out problems immediately.
4. The placement of the roses determines how much you like to see
your boy/girlfriend.
You want to place the roses on the bed--you like to see him/her
a lot.
5. This represents your attitude towards his/her personality.
You prefer the person to be asleep--you love the person as the
way s/he is.
6. The road to home tells how long you stay in love with someone.
You chose the longer road--you will tend to stay in love for
a long time.
That's all of me alright... Betul Cakap... hehehe
Take it Here
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It's day 12...
I miss you..much!!
Posted by AdrenaLynn at 12:54 PM
Monday, October 06, 2003
Honeymoon's OverDear Ruben,
I am not sure of what I wanna say to you. I feel so much inside yet I cannot find the words to express them!
I thank you for that almost an hour long convo we had last night... It was quite a revelation for me! At the end of it, I was left feeling a lot more than I had bargained for.
Your honesty was much appreciated yet at the same time I feel hurt & lost by it! It felt good, having that open talk we had yet It kills me inside when I found out my Gut Feelings were right all along!
With you being away, I deal with it as much as I can. I live my life as much as I can but you're always on my mind. No matter who I am with ot what It is that I do, there's always this stillness..this emptiness..this void that only you can fill!! I doubt you know but the only time that I feel really alive..the only time I feel really complete is when I hear your voice at the other end of the line...during that 1 & only call I get from you every night!
To find out that you're only doing so because you're OBLIGATED to... as much as it didn't suprise me (cos I felt it for the longest time..u never knew i did!!).. It still hurt much!
As much as I'd like to believe that you call cos you care & that you miss me as much as I miss you...I know that it's not true!! I don't wanna pick up the phone to hear that obligated tone in your voice. I don't wanna talk to someone knowing that all they want is to get it over & done with!
Maybe I'm just a stupid little Bitch for caring too much! Maybe I am stupid for giving so much of myself & this heart of mine!!
Maybe I just Love you too much! Right now however, I feel like more of a Burden to you than anything else! Love is a gift, not an obligation! Don't call me if you don't wanna anymore but keep in mind that I'll always be here for you when you need me! Always!
P.s: You're not obligated to miss me either!
Love
Me!
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Got this From Herda Who got it From Pinky ...
Psychological Test
Others see you as fresh, lively, charming, amusing and always
interesting; someone who is constantly the center of attention,
but sufficiently well-balanced not to let it go to your head.
They see you also as kind, considerate and understanding;
someone who will cheer them up and help them out
Posted by AdrenaLynn at 12:38 PM
Sunday, October 05, 2003
*looks at time*Ok Its Sunday already.. So hafta use past tense..hehe!!
Yesterday (saturday).. Nyabi & her darling came over to my place. My dad wanted to talk to Sufi, some proposal of sorts lah! Anyways, they came.. kecoh2..ate..hehe..twice..hehe!! Then both of em..karaoke'd with my parents..hehe!! Lepak!!
Seeing them so loving.. so kecoh.. made me miss my Ruben!! I miss the hugs, the playful punches, him locking my head in his arms..hehe..like a wrestling move..in public..then people around us will think we're fighting or something..hehe!! I miss going out..hanging out..anywhere & everywhere!! I miss all the suprises..I miss being pampered for a while..I miss being special..I miss being..needed..I miss being wanted!! I miss being ..together...!!
Its been 10 days since i last saw you.. Do You know..that I Miss You...
You know, If you don't wanna help me get the stuff..You can just say so! You don't have to come up with a million excuses & reason why you can't get it for me. Its not about money cos I can give you the money..You know that!! The only reason I asked your help cos Its much easier for you to get it for me there over the counter!! It's ok if you don't wanna get it for me...I'll get someone else to help me out!
*re-reads the last para*
Man..It sounds like I'm buying drugs or something..hehe!! I assure you people that Its nothing or the sort..heh!!!
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Its confirmed. We will be moving sometime late this year. Where we'll be moving to is not confirmed yet though. Most likely its gonna be Yishun! I can't help but feel a tinge of sadness though! I wish we don't have to go! I don't wanna go..but we have to! Its just sad.. so many things has change within the last few months. Since I lost my job..So many things have happened!! Its just so depressing!! I pictured my future revolving around this house. This might sound really silly but...I was hoping I could have my wedding here one day..In this home..when it comes!! sighhh... Now that's never gonna happen!!
You know dear, I wish you were around at times like these! Since 3 months ago..since the accident...everytime I need a shoulder to cry on..everytime I need someone to talk to..you weren't here!! I wish I could call you up & talk to you now..but you had to be so far away!! You're my only solace..You've always been...You always will be..but sometimes... I just feel like I've lost you!! Sometimes...I feel Lost ..without you here to keep me sane!!
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The miles just keep rolling as the people either way to say hello
I hear this life is overrated but I hope it gets better as we go
I'm here without you baby but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight it's only you and me
Posted by AdrenaLynn at 2:33 AM
Friday, October 03, 2003
That's a Hidamari No Tami (meaning "sunny people") . Cute ain't it?? Read more about it Here!
I wanna get it..not for myself ah.. for someone I know!!! Its so cuteeee!!!
I want this though...
It's a Trigun Nicholas Wolfwood Figure!! Been looking all over for it!! Anyone knows where to get it??
I wanna go to Action Toys but i can't! The cramp I got during Rugby the other day Is still hurting! It's more painful than I though..Can't walk much..Well..more like hobble ah..hehe..cos my calf feels really really tight!!!
Ok..ok..that's all for now lah.. I wanna go Mandi..hehehe!!!!
Posted by AdrenaLynn at 1:13 PM
Thursday, October 02, 2003
*stares at mobile phone*hmm... Should I ..or shouldn't I!!!
*mutters repeatedly to self*
I shall not get emotional!!! I shall not cry!! I will not call him!!! I will not care.. too much at least!!!
Oh dammit!!!!
*reaches for phone & dials number*
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*hangs up phone & wipes tear from eyes*
Well.. so much for that!! Stupid fucking emotional Bitch!!!
Dammit!!!
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You..called me back..!! I'm sorry too....
I know there's more to you than that..... Love You!
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I feel like going down to Action Toys ah! Not today though cos my leags & ass is achin from yesterday's rugby session! Had the mother of all cramps while i was sprintin down the flanks! Now its all achy!!
But I wanna go Action Toys...
Posted by AdrenaLynn at 12:45 AM
Wednesday, October 01, 2003
Time Check - 11.56am!!Good Morning world..ehehehe!!!
Slept really last last nite. Only decided to sleep at 3.30am! I had been readin that romance novel I got yesterday, Knock Me off My Feet by Susan Donovan. Such an intense romantic comedy..hehe!! Fancy getting turned on while reading a romantic novel .... *grins*..hehe!!
Ruben Called me at 2.30am when he got back. He was out chillin with some frens last nite. That fella .. can never sit still..even with a broken leg!! Our conversations has been great the past few days.. No arguments over the phone. He's been really sweet & more sensitive to my feelings. I have been trying not to take things too seriously & emotionally too. I finally feel that we're both trying to understand each other's needs in the current situation. It feels just like how everything was before. Wonderful!
Ripped a few From Herda..who got it off BungaLili.. Just thot I'd put those i can relate to here..for someone to read..hehe!!!
- When a girl says she's sad, but she ain't crying, it means she's crying in her heart.
- If a girl loves a guy, he'll alwayz b on her mind every minute of the day, even if she is wif her best girlfrens..(or guyfriends for that matter)
- Hearing the words "I Love You" is a great reassurance to a girl that she is beautifuL..
- Girls want nothing more than to feeL loved..
Hehe.. The full list can be found at Herda's or Lili's!!
Anyways, I'm gonna head down to ITE Tampines later today. Gonna go for rugby Training with my Cuz Rosie!! It's her school team but they dun have enuff players ..& she asked if I'd like to train with them. Well since i haven't been at it this season..plus I have lots of time on my hands now..I though why not!! I so can't wait ah..Going to play rugby always gets me all excited!! I've been at it for almost 6 years now & it still does that to me!! Adrenaline rush!!!! Time to step into my nike boots after a longggg time!!!
You...
You wanted me to wake you up this morning. You asked me..hehe!!
After so long..I feel needed again! hehe..I feel so silly typing this out too though!!
But what the fuck.. I Love you !! I am still needed!!! Whoa!!!