Thursday, March 31, 2005

Too Lil' Time...Too Much To Do

I got home from work today went to my room and set my things down. Washed up and changed into fresh clothes. Went into my parents room and they asked the usual 'have you had dinner' kinda questions.

As our short conversation was ending, my mom said...

Mom: "Eh, It'll be April already tomorrow. Like that, You only have about 10 months to go!"

Me: "Er yeah I know ah!"

Went back to my room and that's when I really thought about it!! Gosh..10 short months Left!! So many things left to do!! Suddenly I find myself worried....

10 more months....

Posted by AdrenaLynn at 10:55 PM

I am such an ass..In more ways than one!!

I've got an interview tomorrow afternoon. Where? Just across the street from where I'm currently working at now..heheh!!!

On a personal note...
I'm sorry about last night. Wanna let you know I appreciate what you did last night though. I'm extremely grateful you did what you did. I'm sorry I got upset. I was kinda pissed at myself actually. Never meant to get upset with you. It was uncalled for... I'm Sorry Love!

I guess there goes my shopping spree eh??

Love You Darling...

Posted by AdrenaLynn at 11:37 AM

Wednesday, March 30, 2005

Its My Turn To Hog The PC Tonight!!

Changed to a new layout! Same grey,black white kinda layout though. I couldn't decide between a few others but I dunno..I just like this one more I guess.

Something's wrong with the archiving thingy though! Need to fix that..but maybe laters!

I Think I'm going thru a phase..I Think but All That Matters Is That I Love You

Posted by AdrenaLynn at 10:39 PM

Lost count on how many job applications I sent today. All online or via email ah today. Actually I lost count on how many job applications I've sent out within the last hmm.. 5 months!!?? How many replies did I get.. well.. so far.. 1 I think..but that didn't really rock my boat ah!! Sighh.. well wat to do..persevere on I guess!! Kahwin nyer pasal I can't quit This job now... not unless I have another job waiting for me!!

On another Note....

No I wouldn't say I'm angry or anything. Though I do get worried when you do go and you know why. I'm won't say nuthin abt it anymore now cos I wanna avoid a conflict. Conflicts with you can be heartbreaking at times so I'm gonna take care of myself from now on and spare my poor poor heart from all the abuse :p I'm serious lah!

I have more to say but I shall refrain from it for the above reason lah. Anyways, u go and have fun..Not too much ah..heh! As Always, take care and you know the rest of the drill!

Posted by AdrenaLynn at 2:49 PM

Tuesday, March 29, 2005

Mister Plastic Fantastic

Met me Baby for dinner and grocery shopping todays. I actually intended to get tix for the upcoming Singapore Sevens but the Sistic thingy was out of order. Bummer...

Anyways.. My darling is a happy puppy today. You see he has gotten the plastic he applied for weeks earlier. Two of em!! He said he'll blog about it If he knew how to.. but I've yet to teach him how to So he can't do that yet.
So.. I'm doing it for you kay baby..heh!!

He said when he does learn how to and when he has a blog of his own he's gonna post about me and my incessant blabbering..heh..!! But hunny..I only blab to you cos I love you... :p

*puts on an innocent & utterly cute & kesian face*
Hmm... Darling...Its been a while since I went shopping!!! heh.... I've been so deprived....

Posted by AdrenaLynn at 9:52 PM

Saturday, March 26, 2005

Its funny how when you're in the early stage of a relationship..When you're starting out they just can't get enuff of you. They just can't be too far away from you. They'll drop everything for you... Leaving you will be such burden and they actually feel bad abt doing so...you get what I mean...

Then as time passes by... they just can't wait to leave you. It doesn't bother em anymore if they gonna be away from you for weeks. It doesn't bother em anymore that they won't be able to hear your voice and talk for hours on end. They're even more happier to be away then anything else.

Its funny when we girls when we're starting out in a relationship...We're nonchalant. We're cautious.. not caring too much. We get close but not too close. Its gets a lil hard when they leave but we dun really let it bother us too much. You get what I mean...

Then as time passes.. we care too much. We worry if they dun call us at all. You sometimes wish you'll get to spend hours on end on the phone like you used to. You'd wish they would just drop everything for you like they used to do. You hate it when they're away.

My point... Maybe we shouldn't go past the courting stage. Things are much better that way :) When The reality of having to deal with two separate emotions (or the lack of it) and two separate expectations in life sinks in.. It really ain't a bed of roses!! I mean yeah Life's is a Bitch..so take that and multiply it by 2!!

Love however is a wonderful thing but sometimes it can hurt a whole lot! Disappointing that other person is something you never wanna do..it hurts you as much as the other person. Its a double edged sword I tell you...

We all begin out with good intent
When love is raw and young
We believe that we can change ourselves
The past can be undone
But we carry on our back the burdens time always reveals
In the lonely light of morning
In the wound that would not heal
It's the bitter taste of losing everything
I've held so dear

Posted by AdrenaLynn at 8:58 AM

Thursday, March 24, 2005

We All Begin With Good Intent, When Love Is Raw & Young

I know that the feeling of regret happens over something thats in the past. Something that happened. Something that was done.

But can you regret the future? Well at least wonder if you'll regret the future?
Wonder if this route in life that you take will turn out to be something that's definitely worthwhile or something thats you'll probably end up regretting instead??

Can you?? Have You??

Posted by AdrenaLynn at 2:21 PM

Wednesday, March 23, 2005

This is weird, finding myself updating kinda frequently since yesterday. Bila malas nak update..berminggu minggu tak update!! heh...

Its been a very very long while since I last bought a music Cd. Its been years!! Since P2P softwares.. who buys em anymore anyways?

When did you last buy a music CD? Wat was it?

Posted by AdrenaLynn at 2:39 PM

You have my heart so don't hurt me.You're what I couldn't find.

Some ppl say dreams are just what they are..Dreams. Some say dreams are just your imagination gone wild. Then There are times when you're doing something and you get this..DejaVu of sorts.. and recognised that you dreamt whatever thats' happening right then. Coincidence?

Have you ever felt bothered by a dream that you had? I had a dream last night and though I'm trying not to let it affect me.. telling myself that its just a dream..I can help but feel disturbed by it.

I dunno why but I miss you ...

Posted by AdrenaLynn at 11:33 AM

Tuesday, March 22, 2005

The Thin Red Line

I made a really bad joke that hurt someone's feelings. An aquaintance!!??!! I really dunno how to classify.

Its this thing about my sick sense of humour. Its sometimes so raw..so in your face... I guess it can come off as being insensitive at times. Though It never meant for it to be as. I guess I'm so used to having ppl around me who are used to that side of me. Ppl who take it in jest and give it back to me twice as hard..that i forget abt the ppl who don't. I forget abt that line i wouldn't cross till I get comfortable with those other ppl..

To that person I hurt..If You do read this... I Am Truly Sorry.
I never meant to hurt you nor should I have crossed that line. I never meant anything by that but I don't expect you to know that nor understand that. You don't really know me..nor do I really know you but I understand ur hurt.
It ok if you think I'm a mean Bitch and dun ever wanna acknowledge me again. Its ok.
It really ain't your fault... whatever it is.. I am really sorry!

Posted by AdrenaLynn at 10:50 PM

Just Shoot Me

The Princess
Aku paling bingit kena buat kerja ngan orang yang tak tau buat kerja. Dah tunjuk ajar braper banyak kali pun masih tak tau nak buat kerja lagik. Dahlah buat kerja tu punyalah lambat...everytime buat kerja skit nak kena confirm dan reconfirm lagik... kalau aku free takper jugak. Dah 5 months kat sini pun masih slow ah!! Bingit..suruh send out hari nie nyer invoice.. dari pukul 10 pagi sampai 4pm masih belum abis2!!! There's only abt 60 Odd invoices ajer!!

The One Who Shouldn't Use Make Up (very scary i Tell you)
Yang lagik satu tu kat atas.. Lets call her S lah... dah explain sekali tadik yang semalam nyer account bukan aku buat. Semalam aku on MC and the account Was done by A(who is on leave today!). S kata Ok and procedeed to Email A pasal account semalam..She cc'ed a copy to me.

Abih si Selenger bacin tu.. tadik turn kat sini.. complain abt why the account banyak problem. Dier tanyer aku apesal semalam nyer account buat tak betul..ader problem lah etc etc.
Time tu dah pukul 3. Dari pagi aku busy.... pukul 3 baru nak makan lunch si S nie bleh kacau. Aku dah bingit ..I said to her (Switch to english balik ah)...

"I already told you , I dun Fucking Know and I wasn't around to know abt why yesterday's account wasn't done properly. Why don't you just Fuck Off!!"

Member kena caught off guard dier tanyer "eh you very bad lah,Why are you
scolding me?"

Then i said.. "Because you're asking me the same bloody question over and over when you already know that I wasn't the one who settled the accts. In fact I already told you who's the person who did it. Its fucking annoying!"

Member dah tak tau aper nak cakap..terus naik office dier and send an Email to A with regards to the accounts! Macam bodoh kan. Dah tau who to look for abih still nak tanyer aku lagik. Membingitkan.. kan dah kena fuck unnecessarily!!!

After all the Membingitkan incidents.. plus a couple of annoying calls and customers.. I tell My Man That I Miss him.. and he says to me.. "Oh Ok!!"
So sweet kan.. Thats enthusiasm for you. How can I not Love this fella????

Posted by AdrenaLynn at 4:09 PM

My malay half past Six ah

I attempted to blog in malay.. but it was atrocious I deleted it off..haha!!

Neways, Was in JB last weekend with my man. Went To check out this restaurant he liked. Its ok lah.. the setting looked nice. I find the menu a bit..so so only lah. Still need to check out other places also ah.

On sunday we went up to check them showhouses @ Taman Mount Austin. The showhouses are bloody nice lah. It'll be nice to have a house of your own kan..Here in Sg..u spend almost the same amount for a lil 'pigeonhole' of an apartment. But of course you really can't compare the effiency level and having everything at your doorstep here.

So many things ah nak think abt. Have to calculate the finances and stuff like that, So leceh ah...

Eh,....I need suggestion for favours ah. No ferrero rochers, hand towel or eggs ah. Those things my man dah axed out. Any ideas? Something at least a dollar a piece ke...anyone?? help??

Posted by AdrenaLynn at 10:27 AM

Monday, March 14, 2005

All My Life I've Waited, This is True...

Talks of The Tooth aside... Application has been Approved *phew* I can breathe now :p
Plans... Full Speed Ahead now.

PS: I Love You

Posted by AdrenaLynn at 12:07 AM

Friday, March 11, 2005

The Tooth Shall Set You Free....

heh... Haven't been updating much even though I was on MC for 8 whole days since The surgery Last Friday. What was there to update. I didn't really go out or do anything anyways. The only thing I did at home was Sleep, Eat, Take My medicine,watch Tv Till I get drowsy and then the cycle starts all over again..hehe!

Eating wasn't very fun too. It weird when you aren't allowed to certain stuff..you just feel like having everything. I was stuck at having porridge, soups and ice cream for the first four days.Sianzzzz..

It better now.. by the fifth day there's practically no swelling..well if there was there wasn't much lah. So laters gonna head back to the hospital for my follow up. They gonna remove the sticthes today. I dunno why but that scares me a whole lot.

Tya You've been linked! Hmm..now I got 2 Tia's!!
k..gonna go nows. Mandi....

Posted by AdrenaLynn at 10:36 AM

Thursday, March 03, 2005

Ooohh..Boyyyy!

My dental surgery appointment is @8am tomorrow! I'm not all that worried right now but I have a feeling I'll be a nervous wreck come tonight. Lets not even get to tomorrow. Think I'll be holdin back the urge to pee in my pants...

Gonna take out all 4 wisdom tooth. Think Its better to get it over once and for all as advised by the dentist. It sounds insane doesn't it.. though It didn't sound so bad when the doc was explaining the rationale behind it tat day. I'm starting to think its a bad idea....!! Well I guess at least It'll be done under general Anesthesia..so It won't be so bad..since I won't have any idea wats goin on...I hope!!

So sleepyyyy... The rain is making me feel so tired. Partly my fault for sleeping late..not thanks to Amazing Race ah. Tired already still stayed up to watch!!
Think I'll hit the sack earlier today... but then again that's what I said I would do yesterday too... Oh well!!