Friday, September 23, 2005

Its been awhile hasn't it. Its not like i haven;t been trying to update but it was like everything else were working against me. Its either blogger is down, the pc at work is down and when i do get to update the bloody post disappears or it would publish and gives me this stupid error message!

Things have been great on the home front and well things ahve been dandy and somewhat wonderful on the love front. Got a couple of things done already last week.

Things though are somewhat shitty on the work front though. I know his game. I've been here too long to somewhat expect his next move or what his plans are. I'm lucky too cos I have a whole bunch of people looking out for me! He's so damn frustrated, I think he's getting really desperate. We'll see what he'll try to resort to next.He can try all he can but I'm not gonna budge. Ain't gonna give him that satisfaction...not yet at least...

I've got my own game to play too....!!

Posted by AdrenaLynn at 4:11 PM

Wednesday, September 21, 2005

~~Rockstar INXS Spoiler~~

Like bloody fuck ahhhhhh!!! JD Won!!!
What happened to MiG or Marty!!!!

Must watch the repeat tonight...!! What the fuckkk!!

Yeah JD won! God knows why I couldn't update earlier today .. damn it!

Anyways read abt it Here!

Posted by AdrenaLynn at 11:06 AM

Tuesday, September 13, 2005

Its Probably Me

If the night turned cold and the stars looked down
And you hug yourself on the cold, cold ground
You wake the morning in a stranger's coat
No one would you see
You ask yourself, who'd watch for me
My only friend, who could it be
It's hard to say it
I hate to say it, but it's probably me

When you belly's empty and the hunger's so real
And you're too proud to beg and too dumb to steal
You search the city for your only friend
No one would you see
You ask yourself, who could it be
A solitary voice to speak out and set you free
I hate to say it
I hate to say it, but it's probably me

You're not the easiest person I ever got to know
And it's hard for us both to let our feelings show
Some would say I should let you go your way
You'll only make me cry
If there's one guy, just one guy
Who'd lay down his life for you and die
It's hard to say it
It's hard to say it, but it's probably me

When the world's gone crazy and it makes no sense
There's only one voice that comes to your defence
The jury's out and your eyes search the room
And one friendly face is all you need to see
If there's one guy, just one guy
Who'd lay down his life for you and die
It's hard to say it
I hate to say it, but it's probably me
I hate to say it
I hate to say it, but it's probably me

Posted by AdrenaLynn at 3:51 PM

I Won't Be Afraid And The Darkness Will Fade

I absolutely suck at putting down my feelings into words. All I can say is I haven't really been feeling all dandy of late. It feel all crummy and all I can do is stay positive (damn and thats not an easy thing to do ok!) and hope for the best..In all aspects.

Never the positive individual, I hafta say trying to be positive doesn't make ya feel any better. You just like hide all the negativity away, like going shopping (retail therapy!?!), Ice cream (ooohh Ben & Jerry's) and the works. Like sure it makes you feel a tad better for that short while but you'll eventually feel all shitty again won't ya?

I guess Its like sex...the thing that really sets the moment is all the foreplay,cuddling,kissing,hugging before and after the act. Thats what makes you really glow afterwards while The act itself... I mean.. hey after the climax.. that last like what?? A whole 30 seconds or something and its over!!

Hey that's just my theory. I'm all about pleasing the other party (Think whatever you want here!) and I personally feel that a lil kissing, huggin, teasin and cuddlin gets you feeling great all over and nothing beats that. It good to feel and be told (doesn't have to be verbal) that you're loved, needed (not only when you need a favour or something done for you) and desired!

Ok..I think I'm rambling already! Anyways, I've yet to see the upside of staying positive. Well maybe just the fact that I have faith that things will be better and that there is a silver lining out there somewhere(damn!! where issit??!!). It doesn't make me feel any less shitty though! Spent & Alone!

Oh well.. what else can I do about it right! Stay positive...and "Just smile and wave, boys; smile and wave"

Posted by AdrenaLynn at 11:41 AM

Monday, September 12, 2005

We all always strive to be a good person. We all always try to be good to the people around us. We all try to do good. We were always told as kids probably that good begets good or something like that. Or that thing we all call Karma or something...

But I wonder sometimes.. sometimes does it really do anything? I'd like to believe that it'll come around eventually but sometimes...you can't help but feel cheated.
Sometimes you wonder after giving your all... If its good enough? Are you??

Sarah Mclachlan - Good Enough

Hey your glass is empty,
it's a hell of a long way home,
Why don't you let me take you,
it's no good to go alone,
I never would have opened up
but you seemed so real to me,
After all the bullshit I've heard
it's refreshing not to see,
I don't have to pretend,
she doesn't expect it from me

So don't tell me I
haven't been good to you,
Don't tell me I
haven't been there for you
Just tell me why
nothing is good enough

Hey little girl would you like some candy,
your momma said that it's o.k.,
The door is open come on outside,
no I can't come out today,
It's not the wind that cracked your shoulder
and threw you to the ground,
Who's there that makes you so afraid
you're shaken to the bone,
You know I don't understand,
you deserve so much more than this

So don't tell me why
he's never been good to you,
Don't tell me why
he's never been there for you,
And I'll tell you that why
is simply not good enough,
So just let me try
and I will be good to you
Just let me try
and I will be there for you,
I'll show you why
you're so much more than good enough

Posted by AdrenaLynn at 10:17 AM

Saturday, September 10, 2005

The last few days, I've been hearing the same couple of songs like everywhere. On the radio, Shopping centres etc...! Then it'll start replaying in me head and I evern hear it in my sleep ... Well I'd put the audio up if I could but I guess the Lyrics will do huh..

Here's ONE of em songs...

Elton John - Sacrifice

It's a human sign
When things go wrong
When the scent of her lingers
And temptation's strong

Into the boundary
Of each married man
Sweet deceit comes calling
And negativity lands

Cold cold heart
Hard done by you
Some things look better baby
Just passing through

And it's no sacrifice
Just a simple word
It's two hearts living
In two separate worlds
But it's no sacrifice
No sacrifice
It's no sacrifice at all

Mutual misunderstanding
After the fact
Sensitivity builds a prison
In the final act

We lose direction
No stone unturned
No tears to damn you
When jealousy burns

Cold cold heart
Hard done by you
Some things look better baby
Just passing through

And it's no sacrifice
Just a simple word
It's two hearts living
In two separate worlds
But it's no sacrifice
No sacrifice
It's no sacrifice at all

Posted by AdrenaLynn at 9:19 AM

Friday, September 09, 2005

Issit me or Mondays really Flies while Fridays are a crawl...

Anyways, stumble upon this test thing. Click Here!

You don't need anxiety and problems. All you really seek is a conflict free environment which can offer peace and mental security. You don't like the idea of being alone and, whatever the reason, at this time of your life you feel as if you are being 'left out'. What you really need is perhaps some 'tender loving care'.

Now there are many things in life that you require as essential to your well-being but, try as you may, something always seems to be getting in your way. A word of advice - 'keep trying' and you may be pleasantly surprised to see just how matters turn out.

You need a friend - a close friend - and you are willing to become emotionally involved with the right person, but you are very demanding and particular in your choice of partners. You are constantly looking for reassurance and it is perhaps because of this that you tend to be somewhat argumentative, but you try to hold back - careful to avoid open conflict - since this might reduce your prospects of realizing your hopes of establishing a warm caring relationship.

You are experiencing considerable stress which is essentially the result of on going rejection and hostility. You are in the unpleasant position where offers of trust, affection and understanding are being withheld and you are being treaded with a degrading lack of consideration. You feel that you are being denied the appreciation that you deserve, which is essential to your well-being and self-esteem, but you have to face up to the situation because as matters stand at this time there is little that you can do about it - you feel that you are getting nowhere and the continuous struggle is a lonely one: all difficulties and no encouragement. Whatever you try to say or do is met with continuous hostility and no matter how much you protest you are consistently misunderstood. You need to escape from the situation but you are so perplexed that you cannot find the strength of mind to make the necessary decision.

You are inclined to be too trusting and you feel that you need to be on your guard against the possibility that your endeavors and actions may be misunderstood. Too often you have been taken advantage of and you have been mentally abused. Now you are seeking a relationship which can provide peace of mind, where you can be yourself and not have the need to put on a false front.

Posted by AdrenaLynn at 4:39 PM

Wedding Band Blues

Been going around looking at wedding bands for a while now. Did that again for what felt like the umpteenth time last night. There were a couple from different stores that I Liked...very much. All of em are pretty simple. Three of em stand out cos of the comfort and One pair Stands out cos Its a kinda unconventional design.

The comfy ones are so cos the inner part of the ring are rounded so It feels really snug but it doesn't leave and indentation on your finger when you take it off.

The Unconventional one as I call it, the inner part is flat and its a wide type of ring. Its fits snugly, and really nice but just not as comfy as the others.

I dunno. I'm torn between Comfort and Aesthetics. Damn It!
I'd put up pictures of em but can't find em off the Net.

I thought finding a house was gonna be hard work but that didn't take us long. It was easier cos we both fell in love with the place the first time we saw it.

This is harder than I thought... Sighhhhh

Oh..I also found another bag I liked. This time from Charles and Keith. So now Its between Fila or C&K...damnnnn!! The C&K one is a lil smaller than the pink one ah but its really nice also. The man spotted it ... and after much hmmm.. consideration..i decided that It is kinda nice as well.

Arghhh... Bloody shopping bug!!

Posted by AdrenaLynn at 11:46 AM

Wednesday, September 07, 2005

Heya!!! Been so malas to update lately! I'd feel like updating but don't know what to update :p

I finally saw a bag I really like... @ Fila! Its not too girly & formal and Its like kinda casual as well. Its just the right size. Not too big and not too small but the only prob is.. Its...PINK!!! Its nice ah to me but I'm so like comtemplating if i should get it or not. I mean Its like a pink overdose ah. Sure ah I have this sudden penchance for pink lately (as My man would say) but.. a bit too much right. If I had $$ I think I would've gotten it and look for another one as well.. haha!! Damn!! I sound like a ...woman!! Wanna shop also no $$ to shop ah!!

On another note...

Work has been a bummer. The other guy here has tendered his resignation. People who are looking out for me are telling me that my fucked up lame excuse of a boss is gunning for me. Damn it lah, If i had the chance to go I would have done so long ago.
To those ppl who are with me and looking out for me, I Heart you all!! Thanks...
Its time to go.

Finances are running to a dire low. I don't know why the biils are rocketing like fuck! I mean how many times must I keep telling em to keep the usage down!! Bloody hell.

Oh talk abt shopping earlier right.. I now have a penchance for going into furniture stores, Aussino(nice..but pricey kan) and bedlinen section of Metro. I'm actually checking out bedlinens and utensils and stuff like that. Scary ... but nice though.. It kinda gives me something to look forward to :p

K lah.. gonna go thru the classifies and have lunch now..!! Toodles ...

Posted by AdrenaLynn at 9:49 AM

Saturday, September 03, 2005

I haven't been feeling all that well for the past week. Besides waking up with chills, a sore throat & cough and the usual sniffles. My Fever..is one sneaky lil bugger. It seems that whenever I decide to go to the docs or even think abt going to the docs..It'll disappear!

Well after a week of putting up with the cold and sneaky fever and the lethargy. I went to the docs finally. I figured I'd go to the Polyclinic ah...well, i had time plau could save a lil dough. So after waiting ..I finally saw the doc.. a youn fella. Here's an excerpt..of sorts..

Doc: Hi Morning, So whats wrong?

So I went one tellin him how I've been feelin like crap for a week and what I have..

Doc: Hmmm ok.
(Takes Thermometer and stuffs it up my ear.. !! No fever.. told you it was sneaky)Have you been taking anything for it? (listening to my hearbeat at this time ah...

I told him how I've been popping pills for a week now but I just seem to feel worse as the bloody day goes by!! Anymore pills I tell you and I'd prolly end up addicted to panadols or something!! Guess what he said after that....

Doc: Good.. Keep taking them. I'm gonna give you some more paracetmols and cold medicine for your runny nose as well. Cough mixture for your throat and lozenges.
Take lots of fluids. Give you Mc for today!

I left the docs office feeling like it was a total waste of time. No.. it really wasn't the Mc though I think he could've given more.

I mean c'mon, I've been sick for a week and self medicating with panadols and cold medicine for a bloody week to no bloody avail... and he gives me more panadols and cold medicine??!!?? Wat.. polyclinics ran out of antibiotics issit??

They should have just given me the MC and kept their pills since i could've just gone to the shop nearby to get em pills off the shelves. Stupid Fucks!! Burned thirteen bucks for nothing..geez!

Spent some time with My baby who I was missing so bad yesterday. It feels so nice to be hugged to sleep.. Sorry abt drooling on your arm though..hehe!! I'm sick ok!!.. I don't drool in normal circumstance...

So yeah I'm at work lah now.. nose still runnin and hurting. So is my head right now.
Later got High Tea At GoodWood Park Hotel With My Baby. His organisation umm..organised one ah..heh! I've never been to High Teas before.. heh!! No lah I'm not wearing the new dress I got the other day. No bag to match lehhh.. hahah!!

I'm craving for BK's Lamb Sandwich & Sushi lah!! Oh and Mutton satay @ Singgah Slalu..but I'll have to haul my ass up to JB for that!! Damn I'm making myself hungry sia!!!

Posted by AdrenaLynn at 9:44 AM

Thursday, September 01, 2005

An Out Of The Freaking Blue....

I Started Missing You So....

Sigh...

Posted by AdrenaLynn at 3:03 PM

There's a Victoria Secret & Gap Sale Starting today till Sunday. It'll be at Timberlux Centre @326 Havelock road, From 10am to 10pm.

Think most ladies would have known this by now ah, It was in yesterday's papers but I didn't get a chance to read it cos I was Uber busy. Month's end ah.. stock checking and shites like that..

It was only brought to my attention last night by My Man. He knows I have a penchance for lingerie, G strings...heh..

Hmm...should I? Should I not? Damn shopping bug...!!! I still need a bag lehhh how ahhhhhhh