Saturday, October 29, 2005
I used to be perfect in your eyes. Am I still?Sure no one's perfect but all I want is to be perfect in your eyes alone.
I just wanna the perfect one to you. Flaws and all.
I wanna be uncomparable even if you tried.
but when u look at me, do u see ur wife?
can u picture us lovin' each other for life?
are u playin' the role, just like the rest
these are the questions that i ask myself
if, another should come, who's finer than me
and she wanna take ur love away, would u leave?
baby please answer these question
could this be my whole fantasy
maybe u could just be too good for me
if i don't wake then i won't see
cuz if im not the one u met, then who is in me
in the mist of the tears how come, i love u more, and more, and more
i never longed for no one, yes its true
seems like this questions keep me here with me
ok..My Medication is working its wonders now. Time to hit the sack!
Nyte..
ps:in the mist of the tears how come, i love u more, and more, and more
Posted by AdrenaLynn at 11:36 PM
Thursday, October 27, 2005
Last day! Last Day!
Posted by AdrenaLynn at 10:30 AM
Tuesday, October 25, 2005
Counting down to my last 2 days at the hell hole. Its weird that now that I'm actually leaving, the poeple I'm working with, besides the idiotic son of a bitch, wants me to stay..hehe!!On another note, I have to say that The place I am living in now, this particular block in this particular shitty estate is full of uncivilised people. It so bad I can't wait to move out...
Having the elevator filled with pee every other day is one thing, dog crap on the lift landing, the other day there's a soiled sanitary pad at the void deck (that's so freakin gross), today when i got home, the buttons in the elevator were covered in paint!!
These people are sickening!!!
.... anyways...
straying again ..on another note...
I get scared sometimes. I start wondering...
Is it for real...
For sure...
Its scary...sometimes...
wondering if everything as you know is for real...
and not a huge lie...
Its scary...
Posted by AdrenaLynn at 10:37 PM
Monday, October 24, 2005
Though it was tiring, weekend was good I guess. Its always good spending time with people you love. It was good to see em again too. Lil baby Cal is so cute. So geram but I didn't dare carry her. Its just this thing about me and babies. I love em to bits but I am scared to hold em. They're just so fragile, and i'm so light and i'm worried I'll hold em wrong or drop em and they end up permanently injured or scarred for life or something.I take a look at them and yeah I would so love to hold em but I'm so afraid of harming somebody elses child..so I think I'll wait till they're a lil older or a lot less fragile before doing so.
Finally gettin out of this hell hole by this week. About time too. Hopefully I don't go from one shithole to another. A lil worried if I can handle the new task at hand but I won't know till I start there. Hopefully It won't be too bad.
I have a weeks break bwfore I start the new job right after Raya.
If i had the means I'd go for a short hol.. If I could lah but I couldn't. With everything thats going on, financially I'll have to keep the thing I wanna do or places I wanna go at bay..till it eases up. Which sucks ah, mainly cos I didn't get any rest before I started my current jon with my current organisation.
I dunno, I just wanna go do something and not just be stuck at home baking raya cookies. Mom has commisioned me with that task tis year since she won't have time to do so, cos of work. So I'll be doing em tis year. I just want to do something! Ideally a short holiday or weekend getaway would be great. No Moeny ah No Money!!!!
This year very minimal. Then again wit me..every year is minimal. I only look forward to the food, but please...No ketupats!! I don't like em!
Its just too superficial nowadays.
Anyways, no time to blog alreafy.. Gotta Go! laters ah
Posted by AdrenaLynn at 12:53 PM
Thursday, October 13, 2005
Been a while since I posted anything. Been up to abit in the last couple of weeks. As much as I'd like to jot them all down, I ain't gonna. It's just stuff about how many things got done over that time I've been MIA. Whatever it is, Its all been good I guess.The house falling into place. Kinda excited about havin it done up and decorating it. Honestly, I can't wait to cook up my first meal for us there!
I finally tendered my resignation. Hopefully to something better. Guess that all anyone can wish for when they jump ship. We'll see...
On another front, I'm not sure if everything is right with me. Just the other day, was watchin Tv in the living room. I got up and headed to my bedroom and as soon as I opened the room door My head started spinning. I shut my eyes and felt like falling. I could feel my feet shuffling about trying to keep myself steady. My hand was still on the door and I gripped it real tight so I wouldn't fall over. It was over in like 30secs or so. Went to bed to lie down. It just felt so weird.
Been getting like migraines on the left side of my head from that day. It like comes and goes thru out the day. Been taking plain ol' Panadols for em though I haven't had a repeat of that head spinning episode. That's a good thing I guess.
Alot of Shite happening around the world. The morbid part of me has this sick feeling that I'll never get to The Day I'm waiting for. Sick huh.. I noe. I dunno why... Its just a tad scary.
K.. nuff sick morbid shite for today. I think I need a holiday...
Hold me, thrill me, kiss me, kill me!
Ps: If you read this...I Love You