Friday, June 30, 2006
I'm home alone :( Sianzzzz..The man has gone in to Jb tonight. I gots work tomorrow morning so I'll only be going in after work. Till then.... I guess I'll sit around and watch teevee and oh..do laundry.
Kinda sucks being alone, dun like sleepin alone. I sleep with the light on when the man ain't around. Also no one to watch soccer with me tonight lehhhh!! Double Sianzzzz....
Blearghhhhh!!! stomachs not feelin too good. So's the bad shoulder. shitz lah. Dah thats it for now. Bingit already...
I'm out..
Posted by AdrenaLynn at 9:15 PM
Thursday, June 29, 2006
In The Arms of The Angel, May You Find Some Comfort HereI'm back at work and I'm tired as hell. The husband is just as tired as I am. We're both just really tired lah. So many things about the last couple of days I wanna talk about but I just dunno how to put it all into words. So many things I wanna know,say & so but I just can't seem to be able to let it all out.
Last night I watched over my man, watch him sleep and later cried myself to sleep. I dunno why. Though It hasn't been long, the last few days was still hard and painful. As he slept noisily, I though about how I was told that he snores exactly like FIL used to. Its sad I didn't get the time to get to know the man. I did everything that day, having no idea wat it really meant/signify but knowing that was the one & only time I could ever do something for him, for the family and for my love. Well,if FIL is out there watching us somewhere, I hope It was good enough. I know it was harder for my love. I hope he knows I was there and how so many times I wanted to run to him and hold him close. I can tell he's all worn out, the phone beeped endlessly and hard as i tried to wake him up, he didn't stir. I made my way to his side of the bed to shut off that annoying sound. Silly sleepy & just as tired me didn't press the right buttons and then things started to make me worry...
I am so afraid at times. So afraid I'll lose you like I almost did. So afraid you'll look or find someone else to lean on, to confide in, to seek comfort from, to love. I just wanna be there for you and never let you go.
Through this world I've stumbled
so many times betrayed,
Trying to find an honest word,
to find the truth enslaved,
Oh you speak to me in riddles and
you speak to me in rhymes
My body aches to breathe your breath,
your words keep me alive,
Into this night I wander,
it's morning that I dread,
Another day of knowing of
the path I fear to tread,
Oh into the sea of waking dreams
I follow without pride,
Nothing stands between us here
and I won't be denied,
And I would be the one
to hold you down,
kiss you so hard,
I'll take your breath away
and after I'd wipe away the tears,
Just close your eyes dear...
Posted by AdrenaLynn at 1:10 PM
Tuesday, June 27, 2006
Father in law has passed away peacefully at home at 12.05am, Monday 260606. I'll be on a short hiatus till I can find time and perhaps when everything has settled down. Its a lil trying on all fronts right now. With the boss going on leave, I'll be swamp with work when i get back. So tired.Love, let me be there for you. Its hard seeing you taking it all alone. It hurts. It hurts when you tell me you're fine. Tells me you don't need me. Maybe you really don't. Sometimes you can't make it on your own. I love you babe...
Posted by AdrenaLynn at 2:14 AM
Friday, June 23, 2006
So Tired.So so tired.Tired of work. Work's been a bitch. So is everyone else there.
Its not like I've been doing anything much at home eithers. Its just dinner, the occasional laundry and the occasional cleaning. maybe I'm tired of not doing anything..hmmmm!!
Tired lah. Thats its
Posted by AdrenaLynn at 3:22 PM
Thursday, June 22, 2006
Portugal won! Yeayyy! They were damn lucky though that Mexico missed that penalty. Nuno Gomes finally played. I was screaming away like a banshee. Really!! Ask the hubby..haha!!They'll be up against Holland next in the round of 16. Hopefully they'll get past that round but they really need to play better.
On another note, So many things I wanna do with you. Go out, maybe catch a movie (lots of movies I wanna watch but might just have missed already), Maybe go play pool or something. Haven't really done anything much have we? Maybe once things settle down, meybe we'll take a short break? If possible? Think we both need it anyways. After the world cup lah though..eheh..
...Baby.. are you gonna be tired again today??
Posted by AdrenaLynn at 9:20 AM
Wednesday, June 21, 2006
A Lil Football Update..Germany's win against Ecuador leaves them on top of their table in Group A. Meanwhile England drew with Sweden which means that they're on top of Group B. So what does that mean??
Well that means Germany will face Sweden while England(those lucky bastards)will be facing Ecuador in the next round. Bloddy hell. It is gonna be a definite shoo in to the semi finals for England lah like tha, Which i so do not want. Hopefully they screw up or Ecuador resort to some voodoo magic or what nots and win the game..heh!! If you've guessed already.. I'm so not an England fan...!!
Portugal Game tonight against Mexico. They hafta avoid going up against Argentina in the next round. I think they probably have a better chance against Holland than Argentina lah.
Posted by AdrenaLynn at 9:12 AM
Monday, June 19, 2006
Sex is never just sex when it is with the right person...That right person for me is my darling man of course. I have to say, I am one super horny biaaatch. You know how most men complain about women not initiating sex as often? I definitely don't fall I that category.
I have no qualms about asking for it. No qualms about initiating it. No qualms about teasing and playin around with em till they can't take it anymore and submit to me. Muahahaha!!!....
It's anytime anyday with me. Though everytime, everyday is ideal..haha!!
But as stated at the beginning, its not just sex to me. Its more than that. It is so much more than sex, then making love that I just can't find the words to describe it.
I dunno why I am the way I am lah but I do really enjoy it..very very much (Understatement..I know).
But then the downside about having no qualms on making the first move is the rejection. Damn it's like telling a guy/girl that you like em and want to go steady(do they use that term these days??). When your advances doesn't go anywhere, you're crushed(quite like a cockroach..)! It's usually the sleep monster that really does it for him and for me. It really attacks him first, then he falls into deep noisy slumber..and while i fret, toss and turn..i get bored and only then I let that stupid sleep monster take me.
Then as morning comes, i'll wake up damn grumpy(the man can vouch for that). Then I get very very confused. Then I get tired of asking..for a while only lah!! Till i get over it at least...which usually spans from less than 24hrs to maybe a few days(so far less than a week ah). Then I'll most likely be back to mu usual horny self. Don't think I can ever go celibate...this is an exaggeration but I'd probably die!! Its the same as turning vegan.. or if people around suddenly decide to wanna start eating vegetables & only vegetables!!
I'D SO FUCKING DIE!!
So you must be wondering what my point with this post. Its simple really...
I SO NEED A FUCKING VIBRATOR...(oh the showerhead does a good job too but not too much, water is so damn scarce here to waste it like that. What if suddenly Sg run out of water..then how??)
Note to self: Must try luck tonight! Maybe at half time of tonight WC06 game can have half time show...
Posted by AdrenaLynn at 12:10 PM
Thursday, June 15, 2006
With regard to the last post, nothing has happen yet. Its not always immediate.Its like those times when the man & me started dating, the'll be days my gut will feel sick, say in the AM at work..then true enough when i get back home there'll be world war 3 with dad.
Then there's the time I got that feeling, when the I got that email with the secretary scheduling a meeting with the boss. True enough when the time came, I knew that the outspokenly honest opiniated ways of mine just doesn't "fit" with the company's values. I ain't the only one who got that crap of a reason. They just wanted "yes' man & women.
If recently, then it'll have to be when The man told me FIL's gonna go for an op. Somehow in the back of my mind, I had a worrying feeling that things may not turn out so well. Of course I didn't say nothing bout that,nobody wants anything bad to happen right. So figured I shouldn't worry about it & that things will turn out ok.
Then there's also the thing about being paranoid.
Anyways, let's get off that subject. Getting kinda depressing ain't it.
The 2 ladies in my office, like i mentioned before..they're nice..but It pisses me off to no end cos they will never ever pick up the phone! Yeah..there'll be 3 of us in the room and i can be at the other end..and when the phone rings.. I hafta drag my ass and answer cos they just won't move theirs.
If they gonna use the fact that their grasp of english isn't strong(they're not locals), that's just plain bullshit u noe. Then when i answer and it's their call they just walk on over.. Its like fuck! I'm not your fucking secretary damnnit!!
Oh before I sign off.. Don't think I posted this pic up the last time..
My Family Shot. Together with my 2 aunts and the cousins I'm closer too. Pic taken at 2nd wedding reception.
Oklah that's it.. nothing more to update already. Gettin off work in 12 minutesss....
Posted by AdrenaLynn at 3:37 PM
Wednesday, June 14, 2006
I suddenly got this sick feeling in my gut. The kind you get when something just doesn't feel right. Like something's gonna happen or have happened or is happening as you do whatever it is you're doing.What's scary is that my instincts hasn't failed me yet...
Posted by AdrenaLynn at 4:31 PM
Tuesday, June 13, 2006
Ozzy Ozzy Ozzy.. Oy Oy OyThe game was bloody boring....but in the last 10 mins Tim Cahill struck the equalizer. Then less than 5 mins later, he scored another one. Just when you're getting over the rush of the last 2 goals, Aloisi put the nail in the coffin for Japan. Making the final score 3 - 1. Bloody happeninglah those last few minutes!!! The Japs didn't know what hit them!!!
Didn't watch the other two games, sleep.. got work in the morning lerr!!
Tonight Brazil & Croatia. ain't a Brazil fan but we all know who's gonna win this one. No Brainer!!
One more time now..
Ozzy Ozzy Ozzy.. Oy Oy Oy.....
Posted by AdrenaLynn at 9:10 AM
Monday, June 12, 2006
Its been football since Saturday...The Germany - Paraguay Opening match was happening. Not the usual boring football that Germany plays. Alot of ppl lost money too..ahahha!!!
Watched my team Portugal this morning. Good thing I'm on PM today..haha!! They won but not very convincing though. No Nuno though in the game.
Anyways..stoned ah.. not sleepy..but having a headache though!!
Posted by AdrenaLynn at 12:05 PM
Friday, June 09, 2006
WARNING: Fucking Long Fuck Filled Posting Ahead..People at work just annoys the shit out of me sometimes ya know....
I hate repeating myself one too many times. Especially if what was have said is nothing to hard to understand & it was said loud and clear enuff. It's either you're slow or you're hard of hearing or both. Either ways it's not my fault nor is it my bloody problem...
I don't get the point in updating people when they don't pay you any attention. Then come around and ask for an update over & over again when you've already told them for the umpteenth time what's going to happen.
Then there's the fucking fickle bunch. First they want this. So you get that done. Afterwhich they say change their minds and decide to add this or redo that. So you arrange for the changes and planned it, informed the parties involved and update those fucking fickle bunch when it's gonna be done..say next weekend. Then days later they'll ask you again abt what's the update & the going ons (despite already telling em and having them give the OK days before)...change their minds again, and tell you to get it done this weekend.... The fucked up thing is.. Its a fucking Friday!!
You're pissed but can't do shite about that. I mean you can try but you can't pull off miracles can ya!! If it doesn't gets done you take the flack ...not efficient enuff you see. If you do manage to overcome the odds and get it done ... Its not like they give a fuck anyways. Not even a pat in the fucking back. They'll probably find something else to change their minds bout. Its never fucking ending I tell you!! Make up your bloody fucking minds all you fucking fickle fucktards!
Then there's those people who just don't think. They just can't seem to find a way around things to make it easier for them. We have 1 phone in the middles of the room & shared by 4 of us in the office. Lady A was having a conversation with some support guy over the phone and she keeps telling the guy to hold on, so she can go over to her desk and try whatever it is they are trying to solve. She does this a few times.. talks, puts em on hold, run to desk & run back to phone.
Getting terribly annoyed by this, i said to her, "You do know you can just bring the phone over to your desk right?"
To this she turned to me and asked, "How do I do that?"
I was having (still am) a terrible headache and that stupid question of hers irritated the hell outta me...
Me: "uhh..well.. You can put the phone on your hands..then lift it up and carry it to your desk!!??"
Her: "Oh I can do that ah?" *now going over and trying to bring the phone over* "oh..I guess i'll put it here for now then.. much easier"
Me: "d'uh"
What are you? Fucking stupid?? All you have to do is think a lil and try. Its sitting there right in front of your fucking face & it certainly doesn't take too much effort doesn't it.
Then there's the one who makes everything his bloody fucking business when it doesn't even have any fucking bit to do with him. He'll come around asking abt this and that. So you just tell em to get em off your back even though you don't report to em thus have no fucking need to update that fucker. afterwhich he'll start asking the why's and how so's and then proceed to ask you about the need for it and if there's any way to make do without it or cut down on the fucking cost of getting it done! It'll get to the point where even if you have the answers to the questions.. he'll still try to see if there's anything else he can say to have it the way he wants it. You just feel like telling that dumb fuck that it's none of his bloody business and despite all the explanation and if he's still unsatisfied he should just fucking bring it up to the fucker who requested for it instead. Am I suppose to know all the fucking answers for you?
Its like asking me if Fella C shaved his balls today or Lady F had hot and heavy sex with anyone last night!!
No I'm not PMSing. This headache just really getting gettin to me. On top of all these other fucktards. I dunno why lah... i'm getting fucking irritated by these people a lil more everyday!
Posted by AdrenaLynn at 10:29 AM
Wednesday, June 07, 2006
When the Great Singapore Sale started last month, it was like a week before payday. I was already counting the things I wanna buy for myself. Bags, pretty tops, shoes, accessories..& On top of that, My Brazillian, manicure & pedicure are long overdue.I'm not much of a shopper but it's been awhile since I last pampered myself ya know. Then payday comes rolling along, OK... so this amount is to pay for that, that much is for this, Oh yeah, I forgot then there's that to pay for too....
By the time I'm done with whatever, I end up one sad lil lady. *picks up list & starts canceling off the items* So there goes the bag, the shoes, then the pretty tops...oh yeah all those other lil things go bye bye too....
So much for the GSS huh..... Bummer.
I didn't get married just so I can finally do my own things and have fun. As much as I appreciate you letting me do that, that is secondary to me. I married you because I wanna be with you, have a family & spend the rest of my life with you. I know now that you don't need me but I wanna be there just in case you suddenly decide that you do. Its a waiting game & though it gets really disheartening sometimes but I don't wanna be there only when you call. I am there even before you start looking for me. I Love You Baby.
Posted by AdrenaLynn at 8:56 AM
Monday, June 05, 2006
The situation with FIL is confusing. Why? Its all because the Docs don't seem to know what in the bloody blue blazers they are doing. Its bad enuff that they've got stray cats walking around the hospital..the ICU area summore. They didn't even follow proper procedure before cetifyin someone to be of certain state/condition.Its a specialist hospital summore u noe. I think there are some ppl from Sg who go to specialist hospitals across the causeway for treatment or what nots..mainly cos it's cheaper. Cheaper..sure.. but at what cost?? Your lives??
I'm just wondering if I should name the place..or better yet...put the video we took of that cats roamin around the premises up. Hmm....
Will think about that....
I wonder if you need me at all. Not yet maybe, like you said? Or maybe you really don't need me at all...
Posted by AdrenaLynn at 11:56 AM
Thursday, June 01, 2006
The reprise didn't last long. Things took a very very bad turn with FIL.I don't think I'm gonna go into details about it though.
Last couple of days I was there, seeing him that way. I fiercely kept my feelings in check. I let out only a tear or two and nothing more.
I know it's even harder for you my dear. I know you have to be strong for everyone. I know you're hurting too. Through that exterior, your eyes defy you. I can see it in your eyes. I can hear it in your voice. I know you will not and cannot break down. When you do my dear, when you are ready...I am here for you as I always have been.
I cried myself to sleep last night. I couldn't take it anymore. Even so, I still feel like I am not done yet.