Sunday, June 14, 2009

Couple of Weeks ago a colleague who was meeting up with her husband for lunch decided to bring her kids in to the office for a minute or two.
I dunno how old they were but as usual everyone was gushing and engaged in baby/kiddy talk, trying to get the kid's attention.

I on the other hand turned to acknowledge and carried onw doing work as if there were no grown adults behind me talking in that irritatingly cute lil voice offering sweets and candy to a kid. Good thing they were women, else I would think there were peadophiles in the office!!

It was obvious, I am so not a kid person!! Don't get me wrong I do like kids but I'm not really bothered about trying to impress em and getting their attention. Well I do think I would want to have em ..some of my own. 'THINK' being the operative word.

I'm pretty much bombarded with questions about when we'll be having one of our own... which I can't help but correct.. Not We'll...It's more like I...Me!! Considering that I'll be the one who has to have it for like a long time. The guys just get it done in ...30 seconds..Then the job's done for them!! You might be thinking its normal to have parents and In laws asking.. but hell when you start getting it from the husband's colleagues too... I think thats like...way out of line.
I think I sound resentful about how ....the big man up there made our lil parts work.. hell yeah I'm resentful!!

Life as it is ..is already so damn demanding. You get so tired at the end of the freaking day, you barely have time for yourself. With kids, Its gonna take more out of you, which I dun think I have to give. Cats are different, they make too much noise and irritate the hell out of you, I just leave them out in the living room and retreat to the confort of my bedroom, indulging in whatever the tube has to offer. You can't chuck kids when they're annoying!
Lets not even start on the whole being out with a kid. You can't have lunch or dinner in peace. I just don't think I have that to give either.

It may sound selfish to some but I'm not just thinking about myself here, I'm thinking for the kid as well. I don't wanna bring a kid in and then resent em for my not being able to the things I want. Not something you can put away when you decide its not for you ya know. At the same time, the thot of just having em to shut people up comes up everyone once in a while. But if I dun live up to what they think being a mom is about...then the same people will be the ones making you out to be the BAD parent.

All my unmarried life, I had a curfew, I didn't get to do the things I wanna do and had to do what is expected of me. Now that I sort of have a life of my own, whether or not they say it out or silently hopeful.... I'm still being expected to give these ppl what is ...expected...of a married woman....!! I just don't think I'm put unto the world to spawn...as expected.

All my growing up years, I had always wanted to be of the opposite sex. I also had a feminist streak in me, growing up. I grew into what I am eventually but I suppose that fire in me never left.

Why the reason for this super long rant, you ask? Honestly, I am sick of people in my life...related or unrelated asking me about it. I cringe when i hear or am told that someone around me is expecting. I'm sorry if it offends anyone.... it's suppose to be a happy thing for the person.

Good for you....I am genuinely happy for you. Perhaps you're contented with your purpose and what you have done so far.... but please don't look at me with those eyes and turn those questions that come after the announcement...to me!

I always try to be nice and civil and pretend it doesn't affect me when I get those questions posed to me. I do think that it won't be long till I snap when I get those again.... and when that happens... I don't think its gonna be pretty!

Posted by AdrenaLynn at 9:39 AM

Thursday, June 04, 2009

I Guess We Never Really Moved On...

Always know the song bt never really paid attention. Somehow got to listening to it and started looking up the lyrics;

Anways my memory bank got jogged a little.... then came the realisation on what it was about and it dawned on me who its was meant for.....

Song: Lips Of An Angel
Artiste: Hinder

Honey why are you calling me so late?
It's kinda hard to talk right now
Honey why are you crying, is everything okay?
I gotta whisper cause I can't be too loud

Well, my girl's in the next room
Sometimes I wish she was you
I guess we never really moved on

It's really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak

And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel
It's funny that you're calling me tonight

And yes I've dreamt of you too
And does he know you're talking to me?
Will it start a fight?
No I don't think she has a clue

Well my girl's in the next room
Sometimes I wish she was you
I guess we never really moved on

It's really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak

And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel

It's really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak

And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel

And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel
Honey why are you calling me so late?

Posted by AdrenaLynn at 7:47 PM